Ups N Downs N Ups Again

My husband said, "write your blog", "make a post", reach out!  I have had such a hard time writing anything lately, shown obviously by my lack of post.    Here it is "66" days till my return to Fitness Ridge, and as I sit here I have not had the number go down in the last 2 weeks.  I eat good, and see the scale drop a few pounds as it did when I did the jump start with Cinch.  Then I go back and do my best to eat right, and succeed pretty much.  If I was on a maintaining program I would be golden.  But I am still trying to shrug off the pounds that continue to haunt me.  I spoke of this year being the year that I get a emotional understanding of my lifestyle.  Its obvious I can work out and eat right, its been documented within this blog.  Its discovering my pitfalls and reconstructing how I deal with things that I need to work on.

I am taking everything I have learned from my daughter, the Cinch plan and more and am now doing a new program.  For the first time in my life I feel as though I can succeed and work with this for my life!  I will share my information but not till it proves me great success.  All I can say about it right now is that for the first time in my life I am soooooo excited about what I am doing and feel it will keep me from falling into my previous traps during times of stress and anxiety.  I believe that I can live with the structure of what I am doing for the rest of my life, which I hope to be many many decades from now!

I must address my knee problems and try and get moving more.  Going outside is not an option right now with 3 feet of snow surrounding the curbs of my neighborhood.  I have been nagged off the treadmill due to my pain and am trying to gain strength through my elliptical.  I thank those of you that have commented and give me advise, as life is all trial and error.  I think I have learned that I forever am trying to improve on what I am, both physically, mentally and spiritually.

Today I send out this blog post as I struggle to stay in check and improve on myself.  I am a little more than a month away from my first goal of the Rock n Roll Hall of Fame Inductions, and I hope to be in the 160's when I am there.  So starting immediately, I am going to change that word "hope" into "I will" be in the 160's by then.  Thanks for reading, sharing and being patient with me at my time of struggles.  I will come out of this a winner, but I feel it is important to share my struggles too.  And thanks to my husband Alan for pushing me to write today.

Here's to being a more positive person and making it happen!